what's the buzz?

"what's the buzz tell me what'sa happenin?"
"why should you want to know? don't you mind about the future. don't you try to think ahead. save tomorrow for tomorrow. think about today instead.
i could give you facts and figures--even tell you plans and forcasts--even tell you where i'm goin.
why should you want to know-- why are you obsessed with fighting? times and fates you can't defy. if you knew the path we're riding, you'd understand it less than i."
--jesus, jesus christ superstar

feeling particularly hopeless toady. have less than a week to figure out where i'm going to place my family. eviction's on the 23rd. would have had another 60 days had i enough energy to walk two hours to the courthouse and appeal to my eviction.
mom says we can live with her.... but she hasn't talked to dad about it. didn't get the preapp for public housing in the mail today. i have to strength. and i'm sad. and scared.

but... it'll all be okay. just another season of suffering. gotta love the season you're in.

i was invited out tonight. to watch my friends play magic till the wee hours. that's boring as hell. i want to go out and have fun and be happy. *snf* i don't have the energy to try. i need a spirit bomb.